Year 2012 In Review

Funny 2013 New Year's Eve greeting cardI just read my recap for year 2011. For this year’s review, I want to look back and answer a couple of questions: What were the big challenges in 2012? How did I progress – or not – in reaching my goals?

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Overall,  this year has been a mixed one.

I’ve spent much of my time struggling with the stresses in my life. In March I went to see a doctor and was glad to discover a medication for my migraines that seems to work pretty well. It was about time too, because I spent the beginning of the year wading from one migraine to another. Because upper body strength training seemed to trigger my migraines, I also quit my military push up challenge.

Another positive thing to mention  is that I finally got started with strength training. I started following Lynn Cosgrove’s Female Body Breakthrough program in April and thanks to it I’ve increased my strength a lot.

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In September, I admitted defeat in my attempt to lose weight.

I seem to be able to drop a few pounds which I will promptly regain when I’m forced to deal with the next stressful life period (that is often triggered by some money-related issue). I’m perfectly able to stick to a sensible diet if I’m not under stress – under stress my daily routines and sensible eating crumbles like a house built on sand.

I even asked a Finnish nutrition and weight loss “guru” what he thinks about my “odd” pattern (it may be odd and frustrating to me but I know it is not unique to me) He said he can’t really say as I’m not his client, but that he suspects there is something not quite right about what I do.

I feel that technically there can’t be that many problems in my diet anymore (By technical stuff I mean things like the following: I don’t eat too few calories or have too long gaps between meals, I consume enough fruits, veggies, fat and micronutrients etc. I try to prepare meals I enjoy and I eat chocolate several times a week without problem).

My own suspicion is that I’m still too rigid and restrictive about what and how much I eat. I’m also wondering if it’s even possible to me to lose weight as long as I’m under a lot of stress. That’s a more depressing thought.

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Admitting temporary defeat doesn’t mean I have given up on losing weight.

For months, I’ve worked hard to get rid of my eating and weight-related self deception and avoidance. I started weighing myself regularly again and I also plan and record my daily food intake using a Finnish online service. Thanks to all this I’ve lost a couple of pounds during the fall, though it’s too early to say whether the weight loss will continue or not. We shall see.

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So the bright spots were my strength training and the fact that I found a working medication for my migraines. On the other hand I was challenged by my lack of progress in weight loss and by the difficulty I have handling the stresses in my life.

As for goals, I don’t set any new ones. I still aim for the things I mention in this post. In 2013 I’m going to focus on my strength training, because there’s still plenty of room for improvement –and because I enjoy how it makes me feel! 🙂