To Flourish Is to Take Risks

RoseI haven’t much felt like blogging this week. I heard worrisome family news a week ago and I haven’t been able to focus.


Anyway, I was prowling the aisles in my favorite bookstore on Thursday afternoon when I came across the following quote from Anaïs Nin:

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

The quote struck me like a lightning, squarely between my eyes (excuse me if I’m abusing English here).  Opening the bud is what I have been trying to do in the last six months both in my personal and professional life.

I had to consciously decide I’m going to proceed with my life no matter what. I didn’t stop to ask myself (anymore) whether I can do it or if I’m willing to do what it takes.

It wasn’t the only thing that “struck” me in that bookstore. 🙂

Next, I came across an illustration pretty much like the one below.


I hate facing my fears and anxieties, but I will face them, because the only way to get what I want in life is to force myself into that scary forest. There is no other way to get what I want.


What does blossoming have to do with physical fitness? A whole lot I think!

Every time I vision my future self, I see this strong, vibrant and confident woman. There is no way I can be both physically namby-bamby and the woman of my vision.

So far I’ve been very slow and careful about trying to be get fit and it’s been ok, mostly because the last few years have been hard for me and I had very limited mental energy available.  But now I think I will have the time, motivation and energy to uplevel my physical fitness.

And BTW: I’m not talking about weight loss here. If I lose weight faster than right now, it’s fine, but that is not my goal.

The next stage I want to see in my fitness journey is take-off.


  1. Marion says:

    Hi Satu! What an awesome post! I can’t imagine a single reader who couldn’t seriously contemplate these thoughts for their life. We all have aspects of our life where we haven’t bloomed but are so frustrated that it’s hard to understand why we stay that way. And we all have the scary forest that makes the obstacle to some goal. At least, I certainly have both.

    I think that mostly the “scary forest” regards the unknown. If we just knew that we’d turn out fine on the other edge of the forest, I’m sure we’d all try more things. I guess that when I had people to guide me or support me, I was more likely to risk the scary forest. I confided to a gym buddy (with a few tears), “I don’t know why but I’m sort of scared of weightlifting.” And he understood. And he said, “That’s okay. We’ll take it slow and I’ll be there.” And the fear went away. So please count me as one of those people for you to help make the scary fitness forest more comfortable so you can reach your goals.

    And yes, I still tell my doubts to people about fitness too! My hanging leg lifts were a total bust for a few months in a row–which is fairly demoralizing. I told one of my weightlifter friends and he said that that was “normal” and I should just keep persevering. He also added that I was brave enough to try something I wasn’t any good at, which he respected. That made me feel much better!

    So your flower is definitely wanting to bloom. I can hear that in this post. 😀

    🙂 Marion

  2. Satu says:

    I will definitely use your help navigating through the fitness forest. I want to see results that are similar to what you have. And I’m done with stagnating. 🙂

  3. The first time I saw that quote it had a profound impact on me, as well. And it’s true that facing fears is key…it’s paradoxical.

  4. I love that Anais Nin quote. I read something similar in a notebook this morning, basically saying that the point at which you’re about to give up is the point at which you’re ready for change.

    I like to think that my life changes I’ve made in the last 4-5 months are the turning point for me.

    I’m sorry to hear you’ve had distressing family news and I hope everything is okay!


    • Satu says:

      Hi Deb!

      Everything is ok with my family, but I was a bit worried some stuff I heard. And I’m a great worrier. 🙂 The good thing about going through life changes and struggles is that you’re often in a better place after them.

  5. MIz says:

    thinking of you….

    • Satu says:

      HI Miz! Hope you have enough Seuss hats for your party… 🙂

  6. Aimee says:

    Satu I hope everything is ok with your family. What a poignant quote. It helped to clarify a decision I’ve been trying to make regarding my diet, not in the sense of weight loss either, but the way I eat. I am no stranger to the scary forest. Oddly enough, despite my lack of confidence over the years, I have entered the scary forest many times. It’s not as scary anymore. I now realize that entering the unknown doesn’t mean you have to stay there nor does it mean there is only one way out. Entering that uncharted place gets us out of our comfort zones and allows us the opportunity to try something new.

    I am excited for you and all that lies ahead Satu.

    • Satu says:

      Hi Aimee!

      I’m excited too Aimee(and curious about your decision too).

      I used to focus so much on the scary forest that I think I forgot that what I want lays beyond. And when you step in the forest it’s usually not as scary as you thought… 🙂

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