Year 2012 In Review

Funny 2013 New Year's Eve greeting cardI just read my recap for year 2011. For this year’s review, I want to look back and answer a couple of questions: What were the big challenges in 2012? How did I progress – or not – in reaching my goals?


Overall,  this year has been a mixed one.

I’ve spent much of my time struggling with the stresses in my life. In March I went to see a doctor and was glad to discover a medication for my migraines that seems to work pretty well. It was about time too, because I spent the beginning of the year wading from one migraine to another. Because upper body strength training seemed to trigger my migraines, I also quit my military push up challenge.

Another positive thing to mention  is that I finally got started with strength training. I started following Lynn Cosgrove’s Female Body Breakthrough program in April and thanks to it I’ve increased my strength a lot.


In September, I admitted defeat in my attempt to lose weight.

I seem to be able to drop a few pounds which I will promptly regain when I’m forced to deal with the next stressful life period (that is often triggered by some money-related issue). I’m perfectly able to stick to a sensible diet if I’m not under stress – under stress my daily routines and sensible eating crumbles like a house built on sand.

I even asked a Finnish nutrition and weight loss “guru” what he thinks about my “odd” pattern (it may be odd and frustrating to me but I know it is not unique to me) He said he can’t really say as I’m not his client, but that he suspects there is something not quite right about what I do.

I feel that technically there can’t be that many problems in my diet anymore (By technical stuff I mean things like the following: I don’t eat too few calories or have too long gaps between meals, I consume enough fruits, veggies, fat and micronutrients etc. I try to prepare meals I enjoy and I eat chocolate several times a week without problem).

My own suspicion is that I’m still too rigid and restrictive about what and how much I eat. I’m also wondering if it’s even possible to me to lose weight as long as I’m under a lot of stress. That’s a more depressing thought.


Admitting temporary defeat doesn’t mean I have given up on losing weight.

For months, I’ve worked hard to get rid of my eating and weight-related self deception and avoidance. I started weighing myself regularly again and I also plan and record my daily food intake using a Finnish online service. Thanks to all this I’ve lost a couple of pounds during the fall, though it’s too early to say whether the weight loss will continue or not. We shall see.


So the bright spots were my strength training and the fact that I found a working medication for my migraines. On the other hand I was challenged by my lack of progress in weight loss and by the difficulty I have handling the stresses in my life.

As for goals, I don’t set any new ones. I still aim for the things I mention in this post. In 2013 I’m going to focus on my strength training, because there’s still plenty of room for improvement –and because I enjoy how it makes me feel! 🙂


  1. My year feels much the same – not a total washout, but not a lot of progress. I, too, have noticed certain exercises that set my migraines off so I have to be careful, go slowly, space them out and often just skip them altogether. I’m starting fresh tomorrow with all my fitness goals and I’m just going to do my best and land where I land.

    Good luck to both of us! 😉

    • Satu says:

      Hi LMM!

      I just fished your comment form my pending comments list!

      I hope this year will be better for both of us, fitness-wise and in other ways! 🙂

  2. Marion says:

    Hi Satu! I really don’t have many new year resolutions either. I’m going to keep working on what I’ve already started…and finish things I’ve started. I guess maybe the words “follow through” on things would be key for me.

    I’m glad you like strength training and plan to continue. It was such a joy for me to get stronger. I also got much stronger than I imagined–like you experienced. It was just kind of stunning–that I was so much more powerful than I ever dreamed for myself. Probably metaphorically too. I’m glad that is happening for you too.

    🙂 Marion

    • Satu says:

      Hi Marion!

      I’m definitely going to continue my strength training. I think my core and upper body still need strengthening.

  3. Lori says:

    Satu – you know that stress leads to cortisol buildup, which makes it almost impossible to lose weight. Maybe in 2013 you could try some different things like meditation or self hypnosis (heck or even hypnosis done to you by someone else!) . Forgive me if you have tried these already, but maybe really learning to conquer stress will help you to lose the weight instead of trying to lose the weight as the main objective itself.

    Happy New Year!

    • Satu says:

      Hi Lori!

      I’ve done meditation before but I’m going to give it a new try. I think I also need to work with those of my attitudes and mindsets that make me so stress-prone..

  4. Yes, I’m not sure about the goals either, but I like that you’ve looked back over the year….

    I’d also definitely say that it sounds like you enjoy strength training and have done well at it. That’s so great, as mine is basically non-existent.

    Wishing you a great 2013!!!


    • Satu says:

      Thanks Deb! I wish you a great new year too! 🙂

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